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January 30, 2015

i’ve deemed this the year of parisian everything.  coffee and champagne and coquettishly undone hair.  books and museums and high heels.  stripes and leopard and a stride full of grace and power.


a little bit slouchy, a lot incognito, but all chic.


leather and metals and sneaks.  perfect for noshing a baguette, kicking serious booty and looking tres stylish.


a frothy ball gown, serious updo and the quintessential it girl.


that certain je ne sais quoi that american born, francophile tom ford has mastered.

let it go.

January 29, 2015

here’s the solution:  deactivate facebook.  “unfollow” him.  hide.  be like an ostrich and bury your head in the sand.  but everyone knows what an ostrich looks like when they’re neck deep in desert – just a rump in the air.

i’m guilty of it.  as are most of my girl friends.  if that relationship doesn’t work in your favor or he blows you off after date #2, wipe him out.  electronically, virtually, symbolically.  he’s gone.  trouble is, he’s not really.  he’s still – so far as i know – a real, live human being walking around on two legs (unless my voodoo magic really does work), living his life like a real, live human being.  and here i am.  rump in the air.  frantically deleting, sanitizing, unfo7b7f9304f9da6a440a3a0dc841460d81llowing and deactivating.

my behavior is absurd.  sometimes cathartic.  never permanent.  and always more trouble than it’s worth.

if i’m not worth date #3, then why is he worth even a swipe of my right pointer finger?  he’s not.  i will continue to live my life.  one of grace and dignity and technological avoidance.  and if that won’t work?  well, then i have another finger for him.


just say yes

January 28, 2015

i went to a monster truck show last weekend and wore a foam truck on my head.  my girl friends and i slurped a snow cone out of a fist-shaped plastic mug that spins in circles.  we fought over the blue cotton candy (so much tastier than pink) like we’d never heard of calories or sugar.  our night ended at a bar, but do you know how comfortable it felt being young?

how many times do i fret over whether he likes me or whether my manager was giving me the stink eye at work today or if i’m skinny enough to rock the dolce & gabbana corset dress to the black tie gala this weekend?  how many times do i say no to sugar or fun or giggling?  how many times should i have just said yes?  to fun and freedom and paying for it all with an extra-long run in the morning?

here’s to blue cotton candy and foam headwear.  and the girls that helped me say “yes” more often.


what if?

January 28, 2015

what if – just what if? – being raised an independent, self-sufficient girl made me into the independent, self-sufficient woman i am today?  what if being taught i didn’t need anyone else to accomplish great feats (climbing up the slide, paying rent) means that i don’t need anyone else?  what if i’m ruined by my independence?



January 26, 2015

i think the city is finally getting to me.  i no longer bat an eyelash at an overpriced beer (or, as the case was last night, monster truck rally snow cone in commemorative cup) and my nose doesn’t tingle at the scent of day old bar trash slurping down the street.  i’m aware of and affected by homeless men begging for change in grassy medians on a sunday morning…but it is what it is.  and i no longer have any delusion of a charming southern gentleman casually bumping into me at some capitol hill bar and sweeping me off my feet.  hell, i don’t even dream of aforementioned politico buying me a drink.  it just doesn’t work that way.

pardon my bitterness/reality check/pessimism.  but this is my city.  it is cold and callous and exceedingly unromantic.  especially as i get older.  i say all of this not for your pity – do not feel bad for me, i happen to kind of love this place – but because it’s the first step in me accepting it.  this is not some sex & the city drama.  this is not more 20-something self help aspirational/inspirational lifestyle mumbo-jumbo.  this is real, real.  like, day old trash slurp dripping off my sneakers sitting in the corner of my 860 square foot apartment i share with a roommate and a dog real.  this is get me off tinder and hinge and and just find me my capitol hill prince already real.  this is rolling your eyes because metro is delayed for a water main break and charity gala tickets clouding up your email inbox and searching craigslist on the daily for a little slice of northwest real estate (i’d even settle for noma).  this is contemplating a juice cleanse and then making reservations for bottomless brunch instead.  this is the city at 29 and still frantically single.

i think the city finally got me.

head first

January 14, 2015

i’m just going to dive right back in.  because that’s the type of girl i am.  i like to pretend like everything’s day-old blooming tulips and rainbow sherbet.

i’m watching the grand budapest hotel because something tells me that watching pretty on my overly large television will make the life right before my eyes pretty.

i ate a perfectly healthy, eco-conscious amy’s frozen reduced-fat macaroni & cheese microwave meal for dinner and a handful of reese’s peanut butter cups because i want to believe i can have it all.  or at least health and copious amounts of sugar.

i woke up in the 5 o’clock hour this morning to get in a workout before work.  only to be turned away by two new year’s resolution-ers churning away on the treadmills.

and yet.  i miss my best friend with all of my every molecule.  and i miss that guy that i didn’t really even know who went to the planet far, far too soon.  i wish it was all taylor swift dance parties and vodka martinis.  i want the life of a wes anderson movie, written by lena dunham, and starring robin wright.  i want a facial…even though i’ve never had a facial.  and i just really, really think rainbow sherbet is underrated.

she’s back.  and she’s diving right in.

a single helping of thanksgiving dinner

November 21, 2014

there’s a reason you never see thanksgiving at miranda’s or christmas at charlotte’s.  i always wondered why we never saw holidays a la sex and the city.  it’s because for single girls of a certain age, the holidays don’t exist.  what does exist is a feeling that the entire world is spinning on without you.  people are laughing and hugging and playing that old fashioned wooden monopoly together and you are not a part of any of that happy.  you are contemplating whether to order domino’s or chicken fried rice and later you’ll debate whether it’s a low point or a perk of being single to make and eat an entire apple pie by yourself.

there’s a reason you don’t see thanksgiving at miranda’s.  and that’s because it would feature a single woman, in her college sweatshirt, sitting on her couch, holding a fork and an apple pie.  and that makes people sad.

it makes me sad that for single girls of a certain age, the holidays don’t exist.  but apple pie does.


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